I fight change. No matter how beneficial it may be, no matter how controlled of the change I feel, my soul fights it hard. I like things how they are. I like my little apartment with low ceilings, one closet, and the tiniest kitchen ever. So when a great opportunity came up for me and my husband, that we were more then happy to take on, I started fighting the change.
This fighting came out in a form of awful stubbornness that roared like a lion. I felt comfortable with things the way they are. What would I do when I don’t like an outfit and I can’t run upstairs to my best friend for an outfit check or pair of shoes? What would happen when we want to be social but don’t feel like moving greater then 50 feet out the front door to the front porch meeting spot? I happen to be a big fan of vacuuming the whole place with out having to unplug the vacuum. Me and my husband have this great schedule of when we both get home from work that I don’t like thinking about adjusting to a new one. Things are good the way.they.are.
I fight change.
Like the average person, I started doing some therapeutic stress packing ( this is great because all of sudden I could fit ANYTHING into a box- stress is like magic!) I also turned on my “church” playlist and just felt the feels. I was not searching for a spiritual light bulb moment, but man does the lord know how to reach you when you need some love. So I kid you not, mid box of unwrapped pans, probably from our wedding, I had the thought of “ yes, this change is going to make things different. My zone of comfortableness will be altered, but you know who never changes? My heavenly Father. I can turn to him, and the scriptures, or my playlist on spotify and know that in midst of this change he remains the same. The gospel and the lords love will remain the same today, tomorrow, and the next days to come. No matter how many boxes I create, or trips we make when we move, the lord will still have my back. You guys, I can feel my zone of “comfortable” in the middle of something very “uncomfortable”. The lord gives us this! The lord wants us to feel this peace!
“ He will not always take your afflictions from you, but he will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.” ~ President Thomas S Monson.
I have found that I can always turn to scriptures for peace of mind. For advice that I would not have learned had I not turned to them. Here are a few that are often times my go too in change.
I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. – – The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer; my god, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. — I will call upon the Lord who is worthy of being praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
Though wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.
Psalm 23: 3/4
He restoreth my soul. he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his names sake. — Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff comfort me.
I find great comfort in these scriptures. I know that my heavenly father is, and always will be at my right hand. He is the steady in the storm, the sameness in change, he is my comforter. I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows my needs, and who will let me know of his love. Sometimes, even when I am not even trying.
I may continue to fight change, but I know that when I feel that all is at a lost, and that I am surrounded by a tornado of things that I cannot control, I have something to turn too. I know that I can handle change and that my Heavenly Father not only can handle my anxiety in it all but that he can help carry me through what I can’t walk through alone.
– JoJo Ossmen.